Sunday, December 5, 2010

I never have enough middle fingers

With all the bitches in my life, I can never seem to find enough middle fingers to go around these days. In one area, I walked away from the bitch of bitches thus removing myself from the rest of her pod; and on the other hand walking away never gave me the opportunity to tell them how I really felt. Years of persistent and purposely induced isolation, lies and fabrications about my characters followed by the ultimate betrayal; the "I love you" phrase that everyone needs and wants to hear. I have learned never to say these words unless they are truly meant. It can be so damaging to someone when they learn "I love you" was said out of pure hatred and, even humor; thinking it is funny to lead someone to believe they are loved when they're not. I am what I am and I have learned that approval is not needed from anyone by any stretch of the imagination. You either love me for me or just get the fuck out of my life. Period. No more petty games, no more "I'll talk to you later's" and then don't, no more playing to see who can piss me off the fastest. That's pretty much over. The only thing I wish I could do is shove my middle finger in your face and tell you what a petty, dirty, disgusting person you are for all that you intentionally do. I dare you now, try me. Try me now.

8 comments:

Alittlesprite said...

Go get em!
I never say "I love you" unless I really mean it. The only man I have said that to (Apart from my Dad) is my husband.

Caren Gittleman said...

I am so sorry you have to be exposed to such shallow, worthless people.

Consider yourself blessed to not have them in your life :)

Rachel Mae said...

I do. So very much. Because you know what ended up happening after I finally said "Fuck you"? I found people that are really worth having in my life and I couldn't be happier.

Don't get me wrong, I still love my bitching!! But, as stated in the about me section, I am NOT a bitch, I just have to STATE THE OBVIOUS. I hate having to shut my mouth because of political correctness.

Caren Gittleman said...

amen!!! That is what I like so much about you!

I don't think you are a bitch at all....you just call 'em as you see 'em and that is HONESTY!

Rachel Mae said...

Oh big hugs to you Caren!! You just earned a little place in my heart!

Caren Gittleman said...

Rachel big hugs back to you!

I am very much like you but I have to admit, you are even stronger than I am....you have more guts than I do to blog about it....I am A LOT older than you and have pretty much always spoken my mind (which is why I admire you)...but I am learning from YOU!

You gooooooooo girlfriend!

Rachel Mae said...

Thanks Caren!! I find it more and more difficult to let the "little things slide" anymore. Too many people are getting away with being total assholes and hurting other people for their own sick benefit that it must not go unpunished!!

My blog is my way of taking back what is mine; me. not letting others control me, make me feel like a piece of shit for whatever reasons they have in their dark hearts, and for bitching about the everyday things that amaze the hell outta me. Believe me, not a day goes by where I don't witness, or am involved in, something totally crazy and just plain stupid on the other person's part!

I am glad you enjoy my blog. It's what I aim to do is to bring some sarcastic entertainment to a world full of terrible surprises. Pass it along if you have anyone you know that might have a likeing for something like this!

Caren Gittleman said...

Rach I most certainly will! You are also listed on the blog roll of the blogs that I follow!